7 Swords (reversed)

7 Swords. Futility. Moon in Aquarius. Emotional Distance. Mental overrides emotional. Specially reversed when Aquarius is at the top of the card now. And all these other niggling thoughts (swords) vying for attention from the bottom of the card, attacking, nagging, enticing, tempting (?) the larger thought. I feel like that today. Ideas of meeting people, wasting time online. Whats the main thought I guess is the question?

Reversed shows trickery, deceit but what is the lie and who is being lies to? Another? The self?

So i think first off, since this card is reversed and inverted towards the self it's more coming from the self and not fully explored or conscious. So let's look at that. What do I WANT. And what else is coming at me? Keep the main thought in mind. And not sabotage that thought with lots of smaller ideas vying for attention. The mind can hold a lot of various thoughts but theres no use playing it off against itself. That causes fragmentation and chaos. Keep the main mind still and strong and calm. Moon in Aquarius could show a cold detached perspective is in order but that I can't take emotion out of the picture entirely. Feel how each thought feels and see if I want to proceed.